i pull back the "flat" from you, because of this.

i just have a little reason, but i think it much than enough to pull back my words now.

last night, on a call by you and me..


" i really know, this pain will burden you much..."

" heheheh...you know it was nothing but chaos...the main problem just not comes yet.
i just wonder..how if i get fail..and you... " , i get silent for a moment.

" why...? me...? "

" i just think if you not here...someday you will know my reason.. "

" i was really proud of you... "

" then, proud of what? all i do is makes my own chaos, i dont really think that i was doing something right..."

" no. you go off by the right things, i am always here to give you my full support "

i laugh a little, and said " i dont even dreaming about now "

" now what? "

" us. of course.i thougth i just will be an admirer forever, but now...see? i really close on you. "

" that was a destiny from Allah "

" i see. "

connection stay on, both of us just quiet, suddenly she said.

" may i ask for something? "

" okay. what? "

" whatever it happens in your future, dont ever leaving me "

Ya Allah, is she really said that words? i am freeze, cant think anything, even i cant move any part or my bodies. i recognize that words clearly, an i know she have saying that. i even never imagine.

" why you said that? the only one who have saying that is me. but why you...? "

quiet a moment, and then she said " you're a good man. i never really had a brother like you. just dont leaving me "


" i promise i will "




i dont know, i really dont know how the universe works on me, what's Your plan, Ya Rabb? 


i note one things, that You will never leaving us alone, and You always give the adorable and unexpectable moment, within a message inside it on. Thanks for letting me get close to her, she always help me much, Subhanallah. 


she wish to be always on my side, and so do i. this is my deepest hope, i don't know what its gonna be in my future, but i have a faith, it will be the best for the rest of us. amin